Chasing Fear

March 23, 2009
You awake, you know what you are about  to face. you hate to face the truth so you lie to yourself beneath the surface. You know that life and death are moving closer to edge but you ignore and take another step to suicide. You know what it is but you don't want to believe it. It kills you everyday, and you have to wear the fake face to fool all the fools who will never and fully understand what it takes to survive everyday. You are raging with anger on the outside but dying slowly in the inside, crying and defying bang your head against rocks. Why is it, that it is? Things have been and will always remain the same. Taming the flame is so hard when there is so much to feed it. It roars harder with every little thing that sets it off, people adding their on things to it making it stronger, so strong that it takes you over. You know what it is you awake to day to perform suicidal things that may in the end prevail.
 

Running The Fence

March 17, 2009
Your shaking and your faking it. Crying with your pessimistic thoughts, since your optimizm is long dead! Sweating uncontrolably, thoughts racing, "How did I get here"? Where was time wasted at"?. You are now about to face what you hid from your life. The thing you like to forget about. And now you must face it full heartedly. You once again are going to try and run, but you are outsmarted this time and you're going to be closed in, to face...face what...you bad mouth...what you believe in......
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The Debate On Hate

March 16, 2009
It happens everyday almost all of the time you hate. But why do you hate? There's so many answers to that question. Do we hate because we know somethings better than us, that it might be the only thing in this life that can actually beat us? So we hate it with a strong passion that it becomes more zealous than actual hate? Or is hate just the plain bold face meaning of it? Can you really dislike someone that much? Or is it all in your head? Is it just a belief that you are fed to believe? Or ...
Continue reading...
 

Tightining The Rope

March 5, 2009
What if I tell you will die? What if I tell you have been fed lies your whole life? What if I tell you there is no future? What if I tell you , you and your whole life has been one big lie? You don't like that don't you? You feel cornered. You feel unstable. But what if I tell you the truth, the truth that is against your whole life and beliefs? Until I tie the rope so tight that you can't breathe. This discomfort is the truth that you work so hard to hide. You much rather swim within lies in...
Continue reading...
 

The Neverending Want

March 5, 2009
There are days when everything seems to be going right and everything seems to be impeccable and there are days when nothing goes your way you justwish and want for it to be better. We always want, want, and want. We dream of the perfect ideal life, that society brainwashes as to believe. That it is flawless and an essentail requirement. But is that really perfect to you? Is that the life you want? You should be gratefull for what you have and not what you don't have. Eventhough your life is ...
Continue reading...
 

The Leing Truth

March 5, 2009
Take the fake, break the freak, create to meet, employ to deploy. You play and lay, there's no taming the fame that you want. You thought you were sly but now you cant fly, you sold but you got fooled. Now that you lost your fame you blame because your so close to the flame. You are feeling, peeling, and kneeling. Now used we are unamused, you wait as bait and your fate will come because of are hate.
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About Me


Mariska Kording I love to write. I write Stories, Poems, and Songs almost everyday of my life. I also love to take photographs to. I am kind of weird or Gothic if thats what you want to call me. I love music its one of the only things that doesn't yell at me or tell me what do but be myself. Some of my favorite Bands are Marilyn Manson, Assemblage 23, VNV Nation, Slipknot, AFI, Sneaker Pimps, Nine Inch Nails, Pink Floyd, Kill Switch Engage, Alice In Chains, GodSmack, Korn, Rammstein, David Bowie, The Doors, Stevie Ray Vaughan, and sooo many more. If you have any questions feel free to contact me at amybook22@yahoo.com. Thank for your time to read this and visiting the site. =]

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Chasing Fear

March 23, 2009
You awake, you know what you are about  to face. you hate to face the truth so you lie to yourself beneath the surface. You know that life and death are moving closer to edge but you ignore and take another step to suicide. You know what it is but you don't want to believe it. It kills you everyday, and you have to wear the fake face to fool all the fools who will never and fully understand what it takes to survive everyday. You are raging with anger on the outside but dying slowly in the inside, crying and defying bang your head against rocks. Why is it, that it is? Things have been and will always remain the same. Taming the flame is so hard when there is so much to feed it. It roars harder with every little thing that sets it off, people adding their on things to it making it stronger, so strong that it takes you over. You know what it is you awake to day to perform suicidal things that may in the end prevail.
 

Running The Fence

March 17, 2009
Your shaking and your faking it. Crying with your pessimistic thoughts, since your optimizm is long dead! Sweating uncontrolably, thoughts racing, "How did I get here"? Where was time wasted at"?. You are now about to face what you hid from your life. The thing you like to forget about. And now you must face it full heartedly. You once again are going to try and run, but you are outsmarted this time and you're going to be closed in, to face...face what...you bad mouth...what you believe in......
Continue reading...
 

The Debate On Hate

March 16, 2009
It happens everyday almost all of the time you hate. But why do you hate? There's so many answers to that question. Do we hate because we know somethings better than us, that it might be the only thing in this life that can actually beat us? So we hate it with a strong passion that it becomes more zealous than actual hate? Or is hate just the plain bold face meaning of it? Can you really dislike someone that much? Or is it all in your head? Is it just a belief that you are fed to believe? Or ...
Continue reading...
 

Tightining The Rope

March 5, 2009
What if I tell you will die? What if I tell you have been fed lies your whole life? What if I tell you there is no future? What if I tell you , you and your whole life has been one big lie? You don't like that don't you? You feel cornered. You feel unstable. But what if I tell you the truth, the truth that is against your whole life and beliefs? Until I tie the rope so tight that you can't breathe. This discomfort is the truth that you work so hard to hide. You much rather swim within lies in...
Continue reading...
 

The Neverending Want

March 5, 2009
There are days when everything seems to be going right and everything seems to be impeccable and there are days when nothing goes your way you justwish and want for it to be better. We always want, want, and want. We dream of the perfect ideal life, that society brainwashes as to believe. That it is flawless and an essentail requirement. But is that really perfect to you? Is that the life you want? You should be gratefull for what you have and not what you don't have. Eventhough your life is ...
Continue reading...
 

The Leing Truth

March 5, 2009
Take the fake, break the freak, create to meet, employ to deploy. You play and lay, there's no taming the fame that you want. You thought you were sly but now you cant fly, you sold but you got fooled. Now that you lost your fame you blame because your so close to the flame. You are feeling, peeling, and kneeling. Now used we are unamused, you wait as bait and your fate will come because of are hate.
Continue reading...
 

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